This Post by Gayle M. Irwin
The holidays can bring a variety of emotions: joy, anxiety, sadness, stress. Just like most days of our life, we can ping-pong between feelings. Sometimes we run the gamut, joyful one moment, frustrated the next.
In years past, I’ve enjoyed the month of December; however, a plague of sadness seems to sweep in more often in recent years. As I age, loses come more often, and those setbacks don’t have to affect me personally, but they touch my heart: the horrific elementary school shooting that happened Friday in Connecticut and the classroom killing at Casper College just a few weeks ago are prime examples – each great loss touched my heart.
Sage and Gayle at Barnes and Noble in Billings MT.
More personally, this year I am without my dear Sage, the blind Springer Spaniel who was the catalyst for my book writing.
Sage’s Big Adventure was published in 2007, and from that book sprouted speaking engagements in schools, libraries, and senior centers; Sage often accompanied me. For the most part, this was a joyful season in my life, and Sage, despite her disability, welcomed the challenge of going into strange buildings and meeting different people. She was a gem and people responded to her shining light.
Sage died in March, the month I was completing the final chapter of Walking in Trust: Lessons Learned with My Blind Dog. Cancer afflicted her, unbeknownst to my husband, our veterinarian or me. When the disease was discovered, there was nothing that could be done; Sage died within the week. I had to re-write the last chapter and change the tense in the book from present to past.
I’ve had several booksignings this fall, all without Sage. The journey has not been easy – I had looked forward to sharing these outings with her once again! Yet, like the Ghosts of Christmas Past, Present and Future, Sage’s spirit lives on; her legacy remains, of joy despite adversity, courage in spite of struggle, and perseverance in spite of obstacles, not only in the pages of the book but also in my heart and in the hearts of those whom she impacted. All of these lessons are pertinent to the recent tragedies as well as to life in general. Sage was an inspiration!
I conducted a presentation for a ladies’ group last week, and I chose the topic of perseverance. Sage’s life revolved around that word, and it’s a word that needs to describe our lives, too. Life can be a gauntlet, where we’re WHACKED from all sides. Even the holidays can seem like a gauntlet, with our “to-do lists”, holiday parties, food to make, and roads to travel. And for some, the memories of loved ones who’ve passed on needle the heart and pierce the soul. To find the joy once again in the Christmas season, we must persevere through the challenge, struggle and pain.
We writers know about perseverance. We focus upon our craft, putting word to paper. We submit manuscripts and await editors’ decisions. We trudge through rejections, edits, and deadlines, and we continue writing despite setbacks. Sometimes, hopefully often, we experience joy from encouraging words of others, at creating a character we didn’t expect to discover, and through seeing our work in print. As writers, we too, run the gamut (and gauntlet) of emotion that’s not all due to the season of the year. To be more real, our story characters, too, must exhibit a range of emotions because that is life: joy, sadness, frustration, fear, uncertainty, love….
I have one more booksigning before Christmas. Despite the sadness of not having my beloved dog beside me, I smile as I recall the numerous pleasant times: Sage playing in the snow and following me on a cross-country ski trail; Sage snuggling next to a lonely child in a classroom; Sage laying beside me in my sick bed; Sage chasing the kittens through the house in a game of ‘catch-me-if-you-can”; Sage leaping into the air in pursuit of a chattering squirrel in the cottonwood tree; Sage laying at my feet at our mountain cabin and walking the forested trails alongside me.
As I plan for 2013 and set writing goals, I do so with a slightly saddened heart but also with fond memories and deep gratitude for a blind Springer Spaniel who took me on an unforgettable life journey.
Merry Christmas, Sage! And to you all as well!!
Learn more about life lessons with Sage in my book “Walking in Trust: Lessons Learned with My Blind Dog”, available in either Kindle or paperback version: http://www.amazon.com/Walking-In-Trust-Lessons-Learned/dp/0981892965/ref=tmm_pap_title_0
Learn more about my writing at my website: www.gaylemirwin.com.